A Week In Review

Last week, I posted about my experience doing some extra work on a new TV show. I mentioned the title of the show, which I realized at the time was maybe a bad choice, but didn't think anyone would read my blog. I think my blog was up for just over 12 hours before I got a phone call asking me to remove it.

So embarrassed.

So, the photos are removed (they were really cute) as well as anything else juicy.

But, can recap. I was writing about choices in the business, and how you never know what's worth the risk what's not. You need to follow your gut, you can only do what you can do. And remain loyal. Act with integrity and lessen the fear.

My agent (the one I talked about here) had gotten me my first audition in many, many months. And it was for the same day as this extra work I had already booked. It was also for the same series. It was for a recurring character.

I didn't take the audition....

It was really, really hard to say no. Especially because I never get auditions like this. And that's all I want to do -- is to audition for things like this.

But...I wouldn't have gotten the part anyway.

I'm not being negative, and I'm not creating a self-fulfilling prophesy. I just don't have the credits for a job like that right now, though I may have the chops. One day soon, I'll get there. I must relax and know that as random as this audition was for me, there must be another random one on its way....

Another friend I met that day said he admired my integrity and that I am bound for success because of it.

All of this is on the heels of a couple weeks of seemingly futile work. Working as a receptionist at a new sports club and waiting tables at a new restaurant...

Then my new yoga class sort of fell apart (the owner changed the schedule on me -- second time in a row -- as soon as I showed up at the studio to teach my class. This will not do! I've rearranged my schedule for this, AND have to find my own students. How can I build a client base if my class has no set-time? Though she is very nice and I felt terribly guilty, I had to quit and move on).

Waiting tables is not rocket science, but it terrifies me.

There are so many opportunities for failure.

This scares me so much.

It's not acting -- it's not what I was trained to do. It's way out of my comfort zone.

But I cannot come to peace with the fears that plague me until I face them head-on.

So, I am gunna be a waitress. Even though I am a self-proclaimed bad waitress.

I resolved to do that this week. To rally. To buck up.

And as soon as I made that resolution (I wouldn't say a great calm came over me, I still messed up with claiming my tips on Thursday and didn't know the names of important wines), some really great things happened.....

I got asked to sub another corporate yoga class, out-of-the-blue....

I had two wonderful open calls.....

I got an audition (through my own submission) for one of my dream plays....

I got an audition for an off-broadway play (my own submission)....

I got the audition for the TV show I couldn't take -- all in one day....

That was totally serendipitous.

Then, I saw my beloved's inspiring Improv 201 show at UCB. I knew he'd be great, we all know Ken's smart-as-a-whip....but I didn't know how "in his element" he'd be up there. He was the ruler of the roost. It was just extremely inspiring.

And, that night, we went to a new friend's new home in New Jersey. We'd read her blog (she went to Ken's alma mater), and Ken was online buddies with her for three years. WE HAD THE BEST TIME! Topo invited her glob-trotting friends; and at one point, I was in the room with no other American. But, an Italian, a Belgian, a Greek, a Mexican, and Canadian. Topo herself is serenely beautiful and welcoming. She has great taste. And her husband (Pnut) is uniquely wonderful. A big thank you to those two for inviting us into their home.

Also, last Tuesday I was a reader for a new show on ABC: Meaning I and the head casting director for this show will be in the room for a couple hours with people who are auditioning, (I read the other part with them). I got called to do this because someone decided to be nice and call me.

So, everything's coming up roses. And, my initial response to this is -- of course -- fear. What if I lose all this momentum tomorrow?!

I will.

But IT WILL come back :).

Sorry again this blog is so very self-involved. It's just what I needed right now....